Finally admitted defeat

For a while I have known I've had to lose some weight.  Since the summer I have gone up at least one dress size, if not two.  A combination of an increasingly sedentary life (too much crafting ;) ), too much snacking on things close to hand (ie cake and biscuits), increasing portion sizes (why did I think that increasing the boys portions as they grow also meant I had to increase my own portion siize?), and an underactive thyroid have all lead to me being the heaviest I have ever been whilst not being pregnant.  My wardrobe was diminishing rapidly as I kept growing out of clothes, and I was starting to find things like walking up both flights of stairs difficult.  No longer could I maintain the myth that I was relatively healthy, I might have been a few years ago, but right now things are far from healthy.  So, after finally admitting to myself that things needed to change, I did nothing!!  I kept telling myself I needed to lose weight, but would still sneak a cake, or finish leftovers from the children. 

A friend started slimming world a while ago, and I looked at the books, but couldn't work out how I could make it fit in with a large family or my ideals about non processed food and no low fat or low sugar products.  But I reached breaking the other day, and took myself along to Slimming World.  I sat through all the spiel, and still wasn't convinced, but joined anyway.  I brought the books home and was feeling so disheartened by it all as it was so heavily based on low fat, low sugar products.  But I feel I have got my head around it now.  I am eating mainly fruit, veg and meat.  Isn't that what we should be eating anyway?  Very little in the way of cakes and bread.  But my evening meal is just how it always has been, cooked with fat if needed, and I do rack up the Syns (negative points) with this, but we are allowed between 5 and 15 each day, and most of that goes on the evening meal.

I have discovered a lovely breakfast that I probably wouldn't have eaten before, porridge made with water, but sweetened with half a mashed banana, the rest of the banana chopped up, an apple chopped up and anything else I can fit in there!!  For lunch I have just had left over roast pork (lean) with salad, a boiled egg, and a dollop of mayo (full fat of course!)  I haven't yet been weighed, but I am actually enjoying this now, it has given me the framework to eat more healthily, and I do feel I have lost weight this week already, but Wednesday will be the day when I find out if my adaptation of Slimming World's programme has actually worked.  Fingers crossed for Wednesday then!!