Picking up that leaflet about Forest school training has sparked off a whole load of things for me. A realisation that in just over 18 months time Sophie will be starting school, tied in with the fact she is my last baby. And that I should then start thinking about employment of some kind. But I have been out of the work place for 9 years (12 years by the time Sophie starts school) so I will not be up to date with any social work issues (not that I think I would return to it anyway). But what to do? Should I start training now, so that I am employable when the time comes? Should I just enjoy these precious months with my youngest, and last baby? What could I turn my hand to? What is feasible with four children, house and allotment to look after?
I dream of running a craft shop/fairtrade shop and tea room, serving local and fairtrade produce, but do I have enough of a business head, or the energy? I like the idea of an etsy shop (or the like), but not sure if I have the talent. Would I be tolerant enough to deal with other peoples children in forest school? Should I wait for a breastfeeding support worker job to come up? Gaaah! I haven't had to face this before. So many paths lie before me, and I am hopeless at making decisions!
I think for now, I will make the most of my time at home with my little ones, as they do grow so quickly. I trust that the right path will make itself known to me, when the time comes.